HI FRIEND

beefmilk2:

wish i was kissing you instead of thinking about you

(Source: romanticaust, via thankcas)

I feel like shit. It’s been going on for so long and I don’t know how to stop.

I haven’t seen any of my graduated friends in so long. I’m literally visiting one while she works bc I miss her so much but I miss being a gang in school.

I miss being the gals and I miss feeling like tough shit in the hallways bc now I feel like a shrimp.

Lol I cursed in front of my dad because I was frustrated about math and how “Costello” (aka portelli) already emailed my parents saying I’m a failure and yatta yatta.

And like my dad said I’m just not “trying” meanwhile I’m trying so hard.

But long story short my dad screamed at me to leave the house and that he wished I was gone. He told me if it wasn’t the law id already be out the house. It’s so weird bc the law protects me more than my own father and the law gives me the freedom of speech and not my own dad lol.

Although my dad and I did make up, he didn’t apologize for his words and it hurts so much bc it only sinks further down into my stomach more than anything.

I’m only trying to focus on my future and college but my dad has full control and he can just be cold as a 0 degree winter weather and actually possibly not pay for my college education. The most nerve wrecking thing is that our arguments only get more and more extreme and idek if by the time I graduate he will be willing to pay anything lmao.

Yay to dads?